So this is how drowning without water feels…
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I look at the ceiling of this tiny cramped room and there is nothing but emptiness. There is nothing in between us that can best the triumph of this abyssal darkness… I have done everything I could, but the mere absence of you, voids me of self…
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You can say whatever you want to say, deflect from what these conversations will inevitably lead to, but the matter-of-fact remains… I have a wish… to spend these years with you… I speak of years, the whole lot of them… not a mere second, not a mere minute… not a mere moment…
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I am not afraid to die out of selfless reasons, but when I look back on what this short life has to offer, I scream my lungs out, pleading with you, not to throw me into the ocean… you know I can’t swim…
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Isn’t it too obvious, that you are too blind to see, too blind to feel, too blind to care, too blind to know, too blind to love me… does belief blind that heart that much… I’d like to know… ‘cause I have moved on… and now I need you…
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This violation of what is broken has taken its toll… I am beyond reprieve, said that it’ll break me… it was over before you even gathered your thoughts… I am broken… there’s just one way to save me now… love me…
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Have you ever felt pity in your life? Is it tantamount to love… I’d like to know that… maybe if I disappear, you will miss me, maybe if you know how much harder it is now to breathe, you will pity me, maybe if you know everything I went through in the past, you will look at me more than once and say how much you pity me, and perhaps you will try to resuscitate me… I know you can… first time I saw you there were no veils in between… but a condescending set of beliefs, I know I couldn’t win…
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There is a battle that rages on, we were built to fight for our lives, but when you struggle in a room… grasping for the slightest bit of air… when you’re around me… I wanted to drown without water, I want you to see me, without the so-called arrogance, intelligence, lust, appearance, height, structure, and being… I want you to see me like through instincts… that you were built for me.. and abandon all that constitutes your contrived self… I want you to pity me, for eternity, so that for all the years to come, you will come to understand love…
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I looked above the celestial sphere, stars twinkling, I’m wearing my heart naked for you to see… tell me… is it too late to breathe, I’m blue, crying for you… tell me you love me too…
